I just finished doing the meditation. I sat outside and could hear the birds and wind. I noticed that even after I thought I had completely relaxed parts of my head, I could still feel tension in my jaw and neck. As I went down The rest of my body, I could still feel areas that were tight. It took a long time to let go. I'm feeling extra anxiety today because I'm going on my first trip since the pain started last October. I'm visiting my brother, and I'm nervous about being awake most the night in pain. I have to walk around and stretch most of the night. I even had a dream the other night that I was already there, and everyone in the house was up with insomnia. Even last night, I felt more pain, probably because of my apprehension about going on a trip. I'm going to have to do an extended amount of sitting in planes and cars. I know I need to keep telling myself it's okay to sit, that there is nothing structurally wrong with me and sitting is not bad for your body. On a sidenote, I noticed when doing the journal writing, and I was writing about my childhood, I started to feel real anger and even yelled.