I am somewhat accepting of the TMS diagnosis. I thought that I truly believed when I had some relief after the first few weeks of reading Healing Back Pain. Then this past week pain began again and each day got worse. There was a lot of crying as I tried to accomplish my work and care for my family, and failed. Today i have had to stay at home on the couch on my stomach all day. After a while on the couch I am comfortable again, and can do a few things, but then standing, sitting up, or walking for more than a few minutes causes a sharp burning muscle spasm that encases my left leg from my hip to my mid calf. The return of this pain makes me skeptical of the TMS diagnosis. I have never had pain this bad in my life except in childbirth, and it has gotten worse since I started learning about TMS. Life without TMS would mean everything to me. The way I am living now is not life, and I am scared that the pain will not get better, that the current trajectory of the pain getting worse will continue and that I will end up a crazy invalid, crying over a pain that no one else can see. I guess, on that note, i should get up and go walk around the block. I feel like that is part of the practice I have read about, and i would like nothing more than to go for a jog around the block (we live in the country so our block is just under three miles). If pain comes up, I believe I am supposed to say "Down Boy, Damn You." and continue. Wish me luck!