I am starting day one of the SEP. I'm scared and doubtful. I have known about TMS for 5 years or so and have tried to apply truth and techniques but have still been scared and not 100% acceptance about TMS. I struggle with chronic foot pain and in the past 1 1/2 years chronic yeast infections. I am right on the edge of full acceptance b/c I have a obsessive personality type, always worrying about something, self denial, guilty, put a ton of pressure on myself, people pleaser, perfectionist. SO I completely see that I have a very angry inner child. But I have a difficult time with self compassion, and my inner bully is awful. Always telling me I'm not good enough, I'll never conquer pain, I'm not doing it perfect. etc. I had a GREAT phone conversation with Andy B (thanks so much ANDY and he helped me realize I need to disengage the inner bully and develop self compassion. But I also feel so ALONE in this journey. No one I know has chronic pain so I feel lost with friends some times. I am excited for this support forum to lean on and be an encourager too also. Life without chronic pain means more enjoyment with my kids and husband. But also realzing life isn't perfect and doesn't go in my plan. I am a controller. I want things to go my way and when they don't i'm upset. I play everything out and am constantly either living in the past or the future. I want to work on living more in the present. Mindfulness. It's overwhelming sometimes to think of all the things I want to change about myself. But here we go!