Have you been overly critical of yourself lately? How and why have you done this? You can find a review on recognizing destructive behaviors, such as self-criticism, here. If you feel comfortable sharing, then post your response in a thread in our Structured Program forum. We would love to hear from you. Reading about the review on recognising district behaviours on the wiki made me realise that I had been working really hard on pushing myself in 2014 so that I can get an additional professional certification that would actually reduce the number of hours that I had to work. I don't know if that was the cause of the pain. I do know that I was working from about 7 o'clock in the morning till 10 in the evening in wrong posture but it was with a lot of breaks and I did enjoy studying and working. I was pushing myself with sentences similar to that on the wiki -like do this or else-for example, I made a promise to myself that unless I finish a particular lesson successfully I would not go to sleep. This site lists it as abusive behaviour. But at the same time, I don't know how I could achieve whatever I did without pushing myself. Even in the armed forces, this kind of behaviour is common to make people tough so I'm a bit confused on this if it is really abusive. Nevertheless, for the past 1.5 years, I have not been working much so I hope that should compensate another destructive behaviour that was obvious to me is catastrophizing. Typically it starts happening when I start planning for my finances. So I go like this, month 1 savings left is equal to X, month to-savings left is equal to y and then I start calculating more and then suddenly I'm in a frenzy because I would run out of money and I start worrying what would happen then what does catastrophically actually mean in this context? If I run out of money in 6 months, and I start worrying about it now is it catastophizig? In any case, after several minutes of worrying, I bring myself back by telling me that just like last time I unexpectedly came out pain, maybe is this time also something will happen.