Kim Mc
Peer Supporter
Good morning-
When I look back on the past week, this program and your support really proved to be pretty amazing. I faced an old emotional as well as a physical fear--thank you Eric, for the Claire Weekes audios--I am now comfortable posting on this website and, drum roll pls...I walked on the treadmill for 5 minutes, twice. I haven't done that for 6 years. I guess I was waiting for my knees to feel perfect which was just keeping me in the same psychological/physical cycle. It was a bit uncomfortable but I'm still moving! Thank you, thank you, thank you-what a learning experience it has been so far. The question to ponder for day 8 is about the connection between emotion and my symptoms. Since the beginning of my process, I have used affirmations from Louise Hay whenever I experience a physical symptom and have come to see her probable causes and corresponding new thought patterns as my personal truths-they are now intertwined with the old "programs". When my knees start to feel full or inflamed I think-"Have I been inflexible lately? what do ya know-I have". Or if I get my old right side stiff neck headache I'll ask myself, "Hmm-who have I just judged? me, someone else?" I know that for me, anger is the underlying emotion for both behaviors. Her affirmations are always right on the money but I suppose that could all be learned just like the symptoms. Would it be in my best interest to unpack all of that and start over to make sure that the emotions that I think are connected to my symptoms are authentically mine?--perhaps. 5 or 10 years ago that thought would have unleashed an avalanche of anxiety triggering who knows what physical symptoms. My response to that thought now is, "I guess we'll see-more will be revealed". That in itself feels like a miracle. I know after the past week that what is paramount for me today is to FEEL, one day at a time, one emotion at a time. I know my body has slowed me down to learn to do just that. If I was on a typically harried schedule I may not have time to sit down and whip out my journal or do a round of tapping whenever I feel a pain coming on or a knee going out. I also doubt I would have ever heard Eckhart Tolle's story about the geese floating peacefully on the pond, swimming into each others space, angrily flapping their wings and then going about their business. Unconscious-it's our time to learn how to flap our wings, let that ancient stuff go and move on. Thank you again and have a great day.
When I look back on the past week, this program and your support really proved to be pretty amazing. I faced an old emotional as well as a physical fear--thank you Eric, for the Claire Weekes audios--I am now comfortable posting on this website and, drum roll pls...I walked on the treadmill for 5 minutes, twice. I haven't done that for 6 years. I guess I was waiting for my knees to feel perfect which was just keeping me in the same psychological/physical cycle. It was a bit uncomfortable but I'm still moving! Thank you, thank you, thank you-what a learning experience it has been so far. The question to ponder for day 8 is about the connection between emotion and my symptoms. Since the beginning of my process, I have used affirmations from Louise Hay whenever I experience a physical symptom and have come to see her probable causes and corresponding new thought patterns as my personal truths-they are now intertwined with the old "programs". When my knees start to feel full or inflamed I think-"Have I been inflexible lately? what do ya know-I have". Or if I get my old right side stiff neck headache I'll ask myself, "Hmm-who have I just judged? me, someone else?" I know that for me, anger is the underlying emotion for both behaviors. Her affirmations are always right on the money but I suppose that could all be learned just like the symptoms. Would it be in my best interest to unpack all of that and start over to make sure that the emotions that I think are connected to my symptoms are authentically mine?--perhaps. 5 or 10 years ago that thought would have unleashed an avalanche of anxiety triggering who knows what physical symptoms. My response to that thought now is, "I guess we'll see-more will be revealed". That in itself feels like a miracle. I know after the past week that what is paramount for me today is to FEEL, one day at a time, one emotion at a time. I know my body has slowed me down to learn to do just that. If I was on a typically harried schedule I may not have time to sit down and whip out my journal or do a round of tapping whenever I feel a pain coming on or a knee going out. I also doubt I would have ever heard Eckhart Tolle's story about the geese floating peacefully on the pond, swimming into each others space, angrily flapping their wings and then going about their business. Unconscious-it's our time to learn how to flap our wings, let that ancient stuff go and move on. Thank you again and have a great day.
