Re success at linking emotions to pain. I find this really challenging. I feel like I either have so many different emotions always going or my emotions are so repressed that it’s hard to surface them to make the connections. I spent 10 days out of L.A., been back now for 5 days. - 4 hour flight, some delays, more walking around than usual (big city walking), and I felt better then than I do now. Big city had family, friends and a lot of connectedness. LA not so much. Now I’m wondering if my pain is broader than this or that emotion and more about a total misalignment in my life - wrong place, wrong friends, wrong job etc. If it was just an escape to be away then I’m not sure exactly what I am escaping. Maybe it showed me what community should be and I’m afraid I’ll never have it again. Maybe the emotion is fear… now I’m journaling out loud.