This is an interesting and difficult journey. I have had glimmers of hope and moments of despair. Yesterday was a rough day. I muddled through, but I have to say I was pretty down and tired by the end of the day. If that was my 'day off', I'd like to get back to work. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling the familiar twinges and instead of getting upset, I tried meditating. I did the belly breathing and combined it with mindful meditation. It helped! I relaxed and finally fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, I felt ok. Not feeling so great now, but trying not to think about it too much and just go about my business. I haven't been journaling as much as I know I should and I'm trying to figure out what is holding me back. Fear, I am guessing. Today's goal is to journal for at least 20 minutes. I will do that right now.