I have been working diligently over the past week with three basic goals in mind: Learn to accept that my pain is psychosomatic Learn to be kinder toward myself Learn to identify and then expose negative thought patterns Each of these objectives provides its own unique challenges, but my greatest struggle is with numero uno. It takes a leap of faith to accept that my pain is psychologically rooted, and I've always been more prone to doubt rather than faith. Persistent doubt even in the face of overwhelming evidence has been a trademark of my personality since I was a very small child. The fact is nobody can PROVE beyond a shadow of a doubt that my pain is psychosomatic. Theoretically there COULD be some totally bizarre disease process or structural abnormality causing my pain. The logical side of my brain knows how laughably unlikely that is, but my fear-driven emotional self clings to this possibility nonetheless. As I continue on in my treatment, I expect the grip of doubt to slowly loosen. I will overcome it through sheer persistence and putting in the work.