Hi all! Great news, yesterday at work I did not experience feeling any pain whilst using the computer. Either that or I simply didn't notice it/do not remember it now. I consider this a huge milestone for me and I am really happy. I full day of computer usage and no pain. The weird thing is I've not been connecting with anything particularly emotional, most of my journalling still does not produce a strong emotional reaction. My theory is that I've been absorbing information from a variety of different sources provided on the recovery program that is helping me accept the diagnosis deep down, building my confidence and reducing my fear. I've even considered going back to computer games just to prove I can. I got it all wrong! It just hit me around 5 minutes ago (one reason I love the unconscious mind I think it works on problems in the background when we are not actively thinking about them) that on Thursday night the night before my full day without symptoms me and my girlfriend had a row. This was a big deal for us because we never row not really. And the reason we don't is because when I get angry with her I suppress it, almost every time. And on Thursday night I didn't she shouted at me and instead of merely taking it like I usually do (because I fear making things worse, i.e. she could leave me, and I'm crap at conflict because conflict with my dad always ended badly for me) I shouted back because in my mind she was firmly in the wrong. We had a row and it felt good afterwards like a release of tension and things have been better between us since. I think that the expelling of all that negative anger cause me to have a day without symptoms on Friday and as a bonus things have been great between me and my girlfriend since then.