Yes i ran up a hill, it was like a forrest gump moment. I dont want to get carried away here i have much to work on. I dont want to pressure myself too much. This TMS strategy is working. I have more evidence to suggest TMS is the issue, with old eye issues kicking off, random new pain in my arm which makes no sense, also random pain in my fingers. This all happened same day, looks like i have it on the run. Anyway as regards question to ponder.... I am amble to consider my past traumatic issues are the reason for me causing myself pain. I have made that connection 95%. Today i wrote a letter to my former self. I dont know what to say i feel like i need to just keep doing what im doing. Im going for a dam swim also very soon, its happening, that swimming pool is mine. P.S must not not carried away, this is life long discipline. I have many potential TMS symptoms i can work on getting rid of.