Hello All, Just wanted to share how emotional and vulnerable I feel after journaling about most tragic event that happen in my life which I believe is where my TMS journey started - my mother death. She passed away from lung cancer in 2004, suffering for 6 month like an animal....Loosing your best friend, having no faith, fear of death, crying every single day and 3 years later TMS became part of my life. I was raised in family that didn't believe in God, noone ever raised with me a subject of death and thats all very unfortunate. I saw a psychologist for a while, to work on all my issues, but it didnt help me very much. I am thankful to TMS though, because now I appreciate every moment of life, but at the same time I am so tired of struggles, frightening symptoms, that sometimes I wonder if I can live normal life again...I have 1.5 years old, my girl is a real miracle for me, I want to enjoy the motherhood, thus I will do anything in my power to have my normal life back! Thanks for listening!