The meeitwtion felt great immediately after Journaling straight for 30 minutes. This song on my Spotify Playlist called autumn forest by park leal came on and the sun beamed on me (I was outside by a park shooting hoops before hand) and after the meditation i lind of looked into the sky and thanked god for the sign of healing (sun shining) and prayed to my past ancestors and relatives to bring on the healing. As i meditated, i visualized about ny self acculization board i created and manifested 1. Healing 2. New job 3. New girlfriend 4. New apartment 5. Two dogs (one named cujo cuz im a huge fan of Steven king) 6. Publishing novels (myself sitting at a book signing) 7. New car 8. 2 children (daughter named aspen pearl, not sure of other name yet) 9. Traveling more often 10. Changing the world by helping others overcome tms and giving lectures on my success story). I know that the law of attraction is very real and if you continue to hardwire it in your brain it will happen. All of those things listed above are very doable and when your healed and have passion and a hard work ethic anything in this world is impossible. Who wants to jump on zoom calls each week to discuss emotions, goals/aspirations and progress within this porgiam?