I did the day 6 meditation today which felt wonderful after getting really frustrated with my journaling. I keep trying to "feel" my emotions and I start to feel them and the tears start to come to my eyes and then they just dry up. I feel like I am working too hard to try to to get them to come out. I also am journalling about events in the way past but I have had some major life events that have happened in the last 5 years and I would rather journal about those because I KNOW those have led me to where I am. Do I have to journal about things in my childhood when I have more recent events that upset me? If I journal about the more recent events, won't that help heal the pain that I think is related to them? The other thing that is frustrating is that I chose to journal on the computer because I am struggling with "RSI" and I thought this was a good way to ignore it and prove to my mind that I don't need the pain. But my arms and my right hand are killing me and seem to be getting worse. I don't want to stop using the computer because I don't want to give in to my TMS. Grrrr. Really frustrated and feeling disillusioned today. Thank goodness for the meditation. That helped me at least feel emotionally better despite my terrible arm and hand pain. Wishing I could be one of those people who just read the book and got instantly better.