For Day 6 said to post any doubts about TMS. I don't doubt that I have TMS, I doubt my abilities to overcome it. I think innately I feel like there is something wrong with me. I read about other people overcoming it and I think, "That's nice for them, but they're not as screwed up as I am." Logically, this doesn't make any sense. When I was younger I was treated like I was "different" by family, kids at school etc., and some people treat me like that now if I talk about my difficulties with migraines/anxiety/depressions. (I haven't done that since I started the program though). They would give me that look, you know what I mean, like "Wow, you have too much going on, I can't deal with you." or they would find a polite way to wander off. I learned my lesson and stopped talking to most people about it, but it left a lasting feeling of inadequacy. I hate how our society looks down on those who have chronic pain and psychological pain. It makes me very mad, to the point that I even stopped going to church. I don't blame Christianity or everyone at church, but for a place that is supposed to be loving and accepting of everyone, some Christians are the exact opposite. I know if I felt more secure in myself, I could probably let this roll off my back, but for now, I cannot. I know that what happened in the past, is the past, but I reinforce the things that were told to me by repeating them in my head, probably a hundred times a day. I am getting better at catching the thoughts. Sometimes it's just a feeling though, and not a thought. I can feel it a tightening in my chest, or my stomach flips and I have to think, "What am I feeling?". When I question the emotion, it is almost always fear. And all my fears boil down to not being good enough, which is why I'm striving so hard to just BE. I am seeing change. Thanksgiving was GREAT!!! I haven't had as good of a day since then but I still feel like I'm getting better each day, and I tell myself I am. These are my go to thoughts that I repeat to myself "I'm getting better everyday." "This is psychological not physical." "What emotion or thought was I having before this pain started?" (then I examine it). I tell you, taking a logical approach to the pain, questioning it's emotional source, instead of just jumping automatically into freak-out mode has helped quite a bit!