Today I went on journaling. I picked an issue that has brought me physical pain all my life, my teeth, mouth, swallowing deficit (?), orthodontic treatments, facial pain, connected with the issue I journalled about yesterday. I journaled for about 20 minutes and I almost broke the pen. I made a whole in the paper. I was so angry my anger travelled through my arm. I violently closed my notebook and went out on purpose. I had arranged to do some shopping, but i just had to move. I did the shopping and went to the park, I walked two blocks. I had not done that in a month. I felt very strange. I was like walking, feeling dizzy and at the same time not caring, knowing I was ok!!!!!!!!! Later, I did this self massage I only learned about this technique a week ago. I tried it and it works!!! It changes my physiology. I am so happy. This morning I had a chat with a psychologist who has been trained with these mind body techniques. She suggested sekf gigong massage and group meditation as well (Dojo Zen) . A few blocks away from home!. She knows about Sarno, not in detail. So there are resources around me. She emphasized sitting and breathing and focusing a little on making the exalation a bit longer every time, eyes opened She asked me very interesting questions and stopped my mind a thousand times during the hour. I need to stop my mind! She was relentless. She said you need to sit and be with yourself twice a day. And journal, first thing in the morning, three pages, anything. We did an exercise together that left me looking at things I need without even realizing when I wrote them I do need them: 1. Nurture me 2. Accept and love me. 3. Live! 4. Decide and do! 5. Laugh So much to add to the lists I enjoy! I also need and want these things! Thanks to this forum. May I be safe. May I be free from suffering. May I have the courage to accept myself just as I am.