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Day 54 - Returning to work

Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by Free of Fear, Oct 24, 2018.

  1. Free of Fear

    Free of Fear Well known member

    Hi everyone,

    I want to post my progress. It is day 54 (had to do the math!) since I accepted my situation as TMS. The recovery has been great. Now, I'm no book cure - at my best I had 80% relief for a week or so, but have run into a stubborn symptom imperative. But I have many pain free moments throughout the day. I also ran one mile today (two half miles with walking in between), which I never thought I'd do again.

    The big news: I accepted a new job at my old company! I will be working with elementary kids, and am very very excited, as it's the job I wanted to take next. I'm ready to soak in all that kid love too :)
    AND I'm obsessing over what could go wrong, what if the pain returns, what if sitting hurts, etc. etc. etc. It's a real test of everything I've learned. I start the job in two weeks, so I have this time (for better or worse!) to get ready.

    Sometimes I notice myself feeling shame for not being symptom free by now. So I remind myself that reading TMS success stories is not for competition but for encouragement.

    I'm also learning of the power of affirmations and visualization. I'm blown away by how powerful affirmations can be. I'll say "I'm free of pain. My back feels great" and I feel my body relax and sometimes I even feel the pain melting away (something I'd heard others say but NEVER thought I'd experience).

    Anyway, that's where I am! I'll keep posting along the way, in hopes that someone finds something useful here.

    Thank you all for your encouragement along the way. This website was the biggest turning point in my recovery and I'm forever grateful.
  2. MWsunin12

    MWsunin12 Beloved Grand Eagle

    Don't waste your time feeling shame. It's a pointless emotion.
    You're doing great. I just wanted to congratulate you on your new job.
    It will probably help you get to a full healing. Kids know how to absorb the attention!

    best to you.
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  3. Andy Bayliss

    Andy Bayliss TMS Coach & Beloved Grand Eagle

    I am so happy for your progress!!! As MW suggests, the job will probably help you forward. As we become more active and involved in life, it sends a powerful signal to the mind-body that we are OK, and don't need symptoms. If some symptoms return, use your self-reassurance, as you suggest. And don't beat yourself up. None of this is "linear." And Kid Love is the best!! (I was a school teacher for a long time.)
  4. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hey, Free of Fear - congratulations! :)

    Especially as it's your absolute dream job, I think you'll be so involved and in the 'flow' of it all that your brain will get the message that you're happy and it has nothing to protect you from. My mother was an elementary school teacher for many years and got such a lot of joy from her work with the kids in her charge...

    "Pain can only feed on pain. Pain cannot feed on joy. It finds it quite indigestible." - Eckhart Tolle.

    Fabulous! Good ol' ACE1 - I too have been finding that he was dead right about affirmations :) :)
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  5. Free of Fear

    Free of Fear Well known member

    Thank you everyone! Each response was very meaningful for me, and helping me to see work as an opportunity and not a threat.

    And yes Bloodmoon, ACE1 nailed it. I'm printing out their tips to have on hand to read.
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  6. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    Great minds think alike - I've done the same thing...my copy is covered in different colour hi-lighter pens and getting pretty dog-eared! :)
  7. Free of Fear

    Free of Fear Well known member

    Haha that is funny. I even thought of getting mine laminated.
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  8. Lizzy

    Lizzy Well known member

    Free of fear,

    I am childcare provider for two boys three and five. Last spring I realized I have always had a lot of anxiety. A few months ago I realized I didn't have anxiety when I was with them. This has helped me with how I am "being" when I'm not with them. It has been really good!

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  9. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    Excellent idea! :) Call me crazy, but something else I was actually thinking of doing is writing the salient points and affirmations on some small revision cards held together on a key ring, so that I can whip them out from my pocket or bag and read them when I'm waiting in line or whatever.
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  10. Lizzy

    Lizzy Well known member

    Bloodmoon, I love that idea!!
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  11. Free of Fear

    Free of Fear Well known member

    I've heard of people doing that too! I think as long as it feels supportive - and not obsessive - then it's great.
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  12. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    Children kind of make you 'forget yourself', don't they? I think it's because they live so much 'in the moment' and that makes us do the same. :)
    Last edited: Oct 26, 2018
  13. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    I think I'm going to do those cards! :) I'm going to include inspirational/helpful quotations from other people too to include some from people on this forum that really 'spoke' to me - You're on the list of my favourites that I saved:
    "Habits are hard to break, but..... Instead of trying to stop old ways forgive yourself and work gently on new ways. It is easier to replace." - Lizzy
    Last edited: Oct 26, 2018
  14. Lizzy

    Lizzy Well known member


    They do make me forget myself and its so good to see everything through the eyes of children. They're excited by new things and then I get excited too.

    Aww, you really touched me by being one you choose to quote!
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  15. BloodMoon

    BloodMoon Beloved Grand Eagle

    I greatly appreciate your postings, Lizzy - You get right to the nub of things in a very clear and accessible way and often add a twist of something extra that has never occurred to me before.
    Last edited: Oct 27, 2018
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