Think of some activities you really enjoy doing. If you could do one of these activities without feeling stressed out, without having anxiety, and without worrying about your family, kids, job, etc. how would that feel? Why do you not do this activity more often? What steps could you take to do this activity stress free and without worrying about other things? Do this activity this week. When I was in dreadful pain I literally did nothing, I sat in all weekend I didn't see any of my friends for months I was kicked out my house and I became very depressed. Now I am out of that stage and not suffering with the awful back and foot and arm pain I had I am doing most things I want to do. It's only my hip and the occasional back/foot pain which bothers me. I have started to really hate my job though, I just hate sitting in an office chair all day, I also think working with my Father who I have a lot of anger towards from what has happened to me is not really helping me. I work for him on a low wage and now run one side of the business, my worry is that when I leave the company he will struggle. Yes he could always employ someone else but no one will do what I do for minimum wage. He also takes nearly a quarter of my money off me each month for rent. Though I have decided I am going to leave and going traveling around Europe at the end of next month to see how I get on, I have been waiting and waiting to go to Australia and had to cancel quite a few times now because of my pain and operations..I just think why keep waiting for something to happen, I may as well go around Europe a bit and see how I manage. Thank guys for the support!