Day 43 (Bonus Day 1)

Posting on the forum helps me in my recovery so I will start posting some bonus days (after SEP ended).

A few days back I started worry again about some things at work. I had serious fear, big responsibilities with some risks. I´m not a big fan of risks (even small) if the outcome can be bad.

I decided to work on it, gain more knowledge and also sooth myself. I decided to express my worry to some colleagues, who not only said its not my responsibility, but that I had done so much good work in mitigating risks that I should be proud regardless.

My own voice in my head changed from "OMG what if this doesn't work and the problems bla bla bla" to "OMG, shit, you are really good at your job. And you are so responsible!"

That night I had my best sleep in months. Like I could fully, fully relax.

Fear and worry is my biggest residue to work on after SEP.

 

Sounds wounderful!