So few days ago I finished the program. It's time for small summary: 1) I'm about 30% less pain from the time I've started the program. Is that a lot? I don't care anymore. I realize that the perfectionistic part of me from before the program would said: "Only 30%?! are you kidding me?! you just lost time, you are so lame, can't do anything right, you can't even do simple program the right way, you are going to be in pain for the rest of your life". But today I'm very happy and proud of myself. 30% is something, look at your hair and imagine them being 30% shorter, look at your height and imaging you are 30% smaller - it significant, noticeable and important. That is much how better I feel today. That was only 40 days, I can’t wait to see my results after weeks, months of year of doing this work. I’ll be completely healed. I know that! 2) I'm going to have my second child in June and before the program I was terrified how I'll take care of my newborn with pain and broken back like that. I was so scared I wasn't even able to show any joy or excitement about having another kid. Today, I know I'll be fine. There is nothing to be scared off and I'll do great, like always. I did great when I got married and few weeks later I moved to USA, country that I only knew form TV, without language skills, family, friends, just married. I was fine when my daughter was born and I brought her home from the hospital, exhausted after long labor and I had no idea how to take care of her, being away from my mom and sisters, without anyone who I trusted or could ask for help except my husband, who I still think, was more scared then I was. We raise beautiful, healthy girl that I just can't have enough. I love her so much. I was terrified when I went back to school, study in second language, got the knowledge about difficult new field and three years later I graduated with associate degree and highest GPA of all the students in the program. People without extremities and with other major difficulties raise beautiful and happy kids. I know I'll be fine even if the back pain is still there. It'll be hard...I know...but I'm not scared anymore. I'm strong, my body is capable of much more than this. And I'll love this little boy like nothing in this world. 3) Life is going on, no matter if I'm in pain or not. Days goes by and it's my choice if I'll give a shit about this or not. So stop looking at the pain, look at the world around you and smile to the people. 4) I need to stop and reject all the judgement and criticism that I have in my head. Not only about myself but especially about other people. Life is not a competition. I could go on and on with the list that I have in my head. This program opened my eyes for so many things that I wasn't even aware of. I realize so many facts when journaling. It's very powerful tool and I know how to use it to recognize my stresses, fears, and heal myself. Just one more thing - I met today one of my very good friend. She is a young mom and last week she came back to work after maternity leave. When we met today she was in severe pain - her back was in spasm, she said that she hurt herself while lifting her son this morning. She was in so much pain that she had to be on the floor most of the time. She was telling me how hard her life is now, how she misses her son. How guilty she feels because her husband is taking care of her little one, how breastfeeding is hard for her and her son is sometimes ungrateful and still cries when she feeds him, how disappointed and angry she is when he wakes up in the night. I tired to cheer her up as much as I could and tell her that she has to take care of herself and relax. After an hour she told me, surprised, that her back feels much better and she can sit down and eat something. That was amazing to see tangible proof that TMS is so ubiquitous. I can see how it works not only in myself but in other people as well. Congratulations on going to the end of this post! Keep up the good work and I'll see you around.