What was the most disheartening thing a doctor has told you about your symptoms and in what ways have you kept that in your mind? One of the most disheartening things a doctor has told me about my symptoms were that after looking at my neck X-ray and feeling my spine with his hands he told me that my intense two-year-long headache was caused by the clear loss of curve in my cervical spine. He said that my C1, Atlas, was completely misaligned and that my head wasn't centered properly on my vertebrae. He also told me that my thoracic spine had multiple subluxations and I had mild scoliosis and that my hips were not level. He said when a person has misalignments anywhere in their spine it's like a domino effect if you don't get it treated and over time it will cause misalignments to the rest of your spine causing severe pain and other symptoms such as I was experiencing. I asked him what would happen if I stopped getting regular adjustments and he said I would slowly start to deteriorate again and my symptoms would get worse. (even though getting all those adjustments over those two years only reduced my pain a bit and for a brief period time. I would still get flare-ups so I really felt like I was wasting my money that I barely had to begin with given that I'm a single Mom on disability.) I was terrified! I still am in a way. Even though I haven't gone for an adjustment since June 2019 and I've just begun learning about TMS and what it is since March 2019, I've gotten rid of more of my headache and other symptoms just by learning about TMS than the chiropractor's did over two years of getting adjusted three times a week! But when I do get a flare-up and get a bit of that squeezing pain in my head neck and back I can't help but remember what those chiropractors said about the state of my whole spine and hips. I still worry about if my loss of curve is or will get worse and my extreme symptoms will come back one day because I stopped getting adjusted. My main question that I feel I NEED an answer to in order to feel 100% confident in a TMS diagnosis is this: Is it possible for a person to have pain from both TMS and a spine abnormality such as military neck (loss of curve) and mild scoliosis at the same time? I feel like by not having an answer to that question is hindering my healing because it's stopping me from being able to have 100% faith in my having ONLY TMS. The "what if it is also structural as well" question, I believe is keeping me stuck at this level of healing that I've managed to get to. I live in Toronto, Ontario Canada and there are unfortunately no TMS specialists in my city. So I feel like by not having a professional be able to work with me one-on-one it's slowing down my progress and I'm still stuck with quite a bit of fear. I'm not sure how to progress further on my own. I think the books can only get a person so far and I think I've gotten as much out of all of them as possible at this point.... Jodie D.