This has been some journey...I had no idea of all the issues that I would be prompted to uncover. My back and leg pain started about 8 years ago. I did all the usual treatments with no success and then was introduced to Dr. Sarno's book and recovered quite quickly. The pain returned more than a year ago, and it has been more of a struggle which led me to finding this incredible structured recovery program as I was feeling desperate. I'm now at day 32. The pain is still there, but not constantly and it frequently shifts to other areas which reinforces my belief that it is TMS. When the pain is there, I have been exploring the underlying emotions that may be causing it. When I can't understand the cause, I have found that I am criticizing myself and judging myself not getting it right-- over analyzing myself and falling into negative thoughts that I must be a really messed up person. It's been hard to write about all of these sources of emotional pain and not fall into negative thoughts about myself. But today in journaling, I realized that this is likely hindering me from really recovering--- that my self esteem issues and tendency to judge and criticize myself further reinforce the emotional pain that has chosen to take residence in my body. So today, I am choosing to be more loving and kind with myself--- as one would be with a child that is hurting. When the pain arises, I will ask myself some questions to check in emotionally, but no longer beat myself up and fall into those negative thoughts. I'm just another spirit in this world having a human experience. Thanks for listening.