Todays reading addresses a woman's story that discusses how she balances her life and treating PPD. I am a mother of two kids (6 year old boy and almost 2 year old girl), and a full time employee so it is hard having to deal with daily stressors of life and dealing with TMS. Specific problems in my life that may be preventing me from recovering from TMS is life in itself! I live in the Bay Area so we are constantly on the go! I don't have time to relax, I just go, go go. The only time I relax is when I go to sleep and then the cycle continues. I have a hard time living in the moment, i constantly think about the future (with my pain); the fear of it remains. I am exhausted all the time so meditation tools are not currently being used on a consistent basis. My mind wanders a lot during them and I get bored easily. I continue to be hard on myself and compare my story to others (why hasn't my pain reduced, others have reduced their symptoms and you have not, what are you doing wrong) and I worry about my future with this pain. I need to relax and meditate more often; I need to make myself a priority, I need to change my negativity and be more positive, and learn to be less hard on myself. Kaiser offers a chronic pain class where they teach patients different tools to use for their pain, I am thinking that I should go to their 6 week course since I have nothing to loose. I make mistakes all the time at work and it takes me longer to complete work assignments since my brain seems to not function properly with chronic pain. I feel bad because I feel that I am not as witty as I used to be. It takes me longer to think! I tend to be hard on myself even for making little mistakes.