Today is a free write about how my emossions effect my tms . Though my pain has remained the same for awhile I do notice when I think about my life with dawn and its still sucks . I do get pain but I saw myself what's going on with myself at the moment and I try to stand still and notice . I stopped digging for some deep emotional problem that is the main cause of my tms but I just don't care anymore what it is all I know its a emotional issue, and the more I tell my brain the more I think its starting to get it. And I am finally not noticing whether I am having a pain day or a good day I just don't make a deal of it either way. I also stopped reading book after book on tms it feels like I am going on a merry go round . I stop looking for knowledge and I need to start living and being happy. Yes I am still going threw a bad relationship / marriage but I am not reacting to it anymore . if I need to gibe it attention I respond correctly or address the issue at another time. This tms journey is almost a gift in self discovery ....yes the pain SUCKS but I keep telling myself don't shoot the messenger.