Today's prompt is to write about a current situation that is causing me stress, and how my personality is affecting the situation. I have a relative who is struggling and it recently lead to a situation where she is going to have to spend time in jail. I have an extensive background with this person, and I find that I tend to think about what I may or may have been able to do differently in order to have changed how the outcome was for her. Even though I know it's not my fault and I was doing my best, sometimes I question how I handled things like confronting her, reacting to what she did, or the help I did or didn't offer. I know that I tend to be a 'fixer' meaning that I want to take a situation that has issues and take responsibility to change it. So I tend to feel like everything that goes on has to do with me, or could have been different if I did something different. I realize intellectually that I am just one person and really most people are doing what they do aside from what my input is, and also that it is not my 'job' to 'fix' it or them. However deep down inside I still tend to ruminate about what I could have done/could do. It feels like a sense of dread deep in my throat when I feel like I'm not doing what I should have or that something might be my fault. I never seem to want other people to do much for me, so in the case of the reverse I don't feel that others have much they should be doing for me, and in fact I feel guilty when people do 'too much' for me and also I feel like I 'owe them' for it. But when I flip it and go the other way, I feel like I should be saving the world. I guess that is the perfectionistic and do-goodism. I was having trouble finding how I had the 'do-goodism' piece but I guess that is what I am describing above. So when these types of thoughts arise I'm trying to catch it, realize I'm not helping myself, and let it go.