I am thinking about daily pressures and how that affects me. I think I have a lot of guilt surrounding my kids-as most moms do. I feel like I am not doing enough for them, or not done things correctly. I have a lot of kids and my husband has a very demanding job and is not around weeknights to help. This has created a lot of stress over the years. One thing I realize is that my perfectionism has created stress which in turn has made me irritable. My reluctance to take more time for me, trying to be the perfect mom has made me resentful at times and more stressed-am more grouchy. The relaxed, fun moms who seem to have a lot of energy to do more with their kids, seem to take a lot of "me time". I have been too much of a martyr to do this and it has been bad for everyone. My body is telling me to reassess things and maker some positive changes. One downside lately is that I have been wondering again whether the hip pain is related to my stomach diastasis-muscles basically torn and lax from pregnancy. When you hear about this condition, everyone says that back pain is a result as the stomach muscles cannot support the back anymore. People I know who have gotten stomach surgery have reported that their back pain went away--I wonder if there is some self-fulfilling prophecy/expectations and then placebo affect. I was willing to believe TMS 100%, but this thought has been creeping in lately. I notice my symptoms are worse in the a.m. (and feel very connected to stress). I am jogging again, but still have a hard time sitting for long periods.