Funny timing on the topic of today. The last time I exercised was this morning actually. I'll come back to how I currently feel in a little bit. I have had chronic back pain on and off for the past 13 years. It comes, it goes, but ultimately it always passes. It was 2+ years ago that I had been living with severe pain for several months. I had gone through the entire ringer of treatments (physical therapy, epidural injections, facet join injections, medication), everything but surgery. When my orthopedic looked at my x-rays he repeately told me the same thing; I have a slight herniation in my L5/S1 and that it will cause slight discomfort, but it shouldn't be debilitating. Still, I was in agonizing pain throughout the work week. I read Dr. Sarno's book 2 years ago and felt immediate relief. As is almost always the case, it came back because I had not dealt with the underlying issues living in my subconsciousness. One day, after nearly a month of slow progress in feeling better, I made the pledge to return to the one activity that makes me the happiest in the world, rugby. I vowed that I would use that as my last barrier of not letting my TMS handcuff me into doing what I want to do. For 1 month, I trained for an upcoming fall season. I lifted weights, ran, did agility exercises, the whole 9 yards. I went through the entire fall season with almost no back pain. What's more, I hadn't felt that "alive" in years! That winter (2016), as I continued to train for the upcoming spring season I "tweaked" my back while doing power cleans in the gym. I took a couple of days off of work and started reading TMS material as well as journaling. I was back to lifting weights (heavily I might add) within a month. For the most part, 2016 was a great year in that I had close to zero setbacks in my TMS experience. I played and trained for two seasons of rugby (spring & fall), hiked, golfed, skied, ran, etc. There were no physical limitations to what I would do. Even though I was 35, I felt just as good as if I were 21 again (to a certain degree). The only true setback that I did have in 2016 came at the end (November) and I would consider myself still going through it. It was a Friday, and I felt the "twitch" coming on early in the morning, and progressively growing as the day went on. As I walked to the train station, I felt it "peaking". As my walk continued, a lady stopped abruptly in front of me, which required a hard stop and swerve in order to avoid running into her. I felt my lower back kick into full tense mode. However, I was back in the gym, lifting again within a month. Last week, while lifting, it went again. A couple of days off, and I was back at it. However, the pain has been coming back pretty hard this week. Today has been pretty bad. I lifted this morning and the pain has every so suddenly increased as the day went on. I'm breathing, I'm journaling, I'm believing, but still that pain!