So I'm at day #3 right now, and have been struggling so hard to ignore the ache in my shoulder blades. Also I am learning that I have probably had TMS my whole life. i had irritable bowel syndrome and hyper acidity from 14-18, then I had an ankle issue/ fracture, then knee pain with no structural issues, then frequent Urinary tract infections and now we have our most serious case, BACK PAIN. It's so hard to believe, when my shoulder blade is aching and I'm drawing this art project, that the pain is from tension. A part of me wants to say, 'Cookie, straighten up, your posture is the one giving you pain,'. I answered the question of exercise today and thought to myself about the last time I exercised and how it felt. I'm in an intense theater program right now and we have classes 7 am to 10pm daily NO WEEKENDS. The program ends December the 19th but its very hard. I was terrified to do this program because of my back and even now I still am. Imagine doing downward facing dog with a person strapped to your stomach. It's intense. Every morning we have mandatory warm ups. I just realized, by reflecting, that at yoga last week I was so stressed out. Every time the instructor suggests a certain position, I have to 'BACK CHECK' it like, Back, do you think we can do that? And even though I do almost everything in the class i'm just stressed out, like, oh that's going to definitely case pain. Then, when we do the twists and turns and back stretches, I put more emphasis on them like, 'Okay, here we go, better get rid of that tension... STRETCH AS MUCH AS YOU CAN!' And so the entire class is one of frustration and anger like- why isn't this getting better? Or pressure on my back to really extend. Any ideas on how to remedy this? What should i do to fix this? My inner bully is quite something. I believe I have TMS 85% now, but now, wondering whether I should stop seeing a physical therapist. This person is like my safety net, and no doubt, my left is weaker than my right. Also, it seems, recently, that I have been feeling fine, which makes me wonder sometimes whether I have TMS. Like my shoulder is on fire, but emotionally, I feel fine. So I keep wondering what I could be repressing. The other day I expressed my frustration about something, then the pain went away, travelled to my right side, then up to my neck, disappeared, then came back after five minutes and I was like, 'PAIN? I THOUGHT I JUST UNREPRESSED YOU??" Any comments on that?