Day 3 - Positive changes and notes on exercise

[giulietta90]

"Question to ponder: When was the last time you exercised or did another physical activity? What was this activity? How did it make you feel physically and emotionally? If it has been a while since you last exercised, why?"

Walking on Ontario Lake, yesterday. I love walking, but it is hard for me to get out of the apartment…. I am afraid of being alone with my thoughts, or of crying in public (my mum is really sick).
I always feel much better when I go! My mood improves, I feel less stuck, my body feels less… clumsy, somehow. More awake. Everything flows better.
I should try to go today, despite the weather! And look at how discomfort and pain are when I am back.

Also: somehting great happened on day 1! While journaling, expressed a whole lot of anger surrounding my current illustration project I didn't know I even had. Suddenly I started to feel some pleasant coolness in my left hand and arm, that until then were in pain and midly numb; the discomfort and mild pain I kept feeling for days disappeared and didn't come back for now!!!

 

[Hedger]

I am afraid of being alone with my thoughts, or of crying in public (my mum is really sick).

Sorry to hear about your mother. I liked what Andy Bayliss wrote to me about sadness "sadness is close to my heart, it is an opening to intimacy and tenderness, a closeness with my experience". It helped me appreciate my sadness even more, seeing it as beautiful instead of fearing it (or see as weak).

expressed a whole lot of anger surrounding my current illustration project I didn't know I even had.

That is awesome! You opened up to find something already on day 1. Keep the openness towards yourself even when its tough and difficult!

 

[giulietta90]

thank you for the encouragement and those beautiful words about sadness... it is very much true. In fact, I would say that every time I cry I feel closer to myself and more present... always feel more is my motto!