Day 3 odd truths

I just started reading the article on the day 2 page and realized a few interesting things about myself. Firstly, I was busy yesterday and not home, so I'm reading day 2 on the third day. I already feel like I've done something wrong. Three days into the program and I'm already screwing up! It says right on the first page to" go at your own pace", somehow that doesn't sink in. I also posted a short post on my first day, 33 reads and no likes! I've always had low self esteem, it was how my parents controlled me, to always make me feel inferior. I just didn't realize it was this obvious. My symptoms, low back pain, verging on spasm over the last week seem to be getting worse again. I know there is nothing physically wrong with my back, so I'm thinking part of me doesn't like this turn of events.

 

An increase in pain after starting your TMS recovery journey is quite common. This is my second attempt to complete this program. When I tried the first time, I remember my pain getting worse in the first week. The pain even moved to a new area (from shoulder to low back/butt). This time around, I'm seeing a little decrease in pain during my first week. It's different for everyone. Keep at it! I've taken great comfort in success stories. There are some great ones on YouTube, if you have the time.

Good luck!

- Matt

 

thank you for your support. I'm still hurting, but I have gone jogging for short distances twice in the last few days. I've really conditioned myself over the years to respond to running or bending over with the fear of back spasms. I've made my living as a potter for forty five years and of course I'm bent over a wheel quite a bit of the day. Whenever I get the lower back spasms I can't work. Then there is the fear of if I can't work, how do I support myself? So in some respect, I think the fear of being immobilized is more fearful than the pain, I think. The two are so closely linked that I can't tell the difference. Thanks again for the encouragement. I will keep at it.