I exercised today after having a terrible bout of spasms. I felt a little better afterwards. My body feels so tight/restrained after these bouts, and it’s good to move again. I still feel a little sore from a bout of spams earlier. I think I have been digging into areas that are very painful for me to acknowledge and my body is doing everything it can to protect me from this.
Also, I had to talk to someone in the middle of doing this work, and it really was not good timing. My mind/body was dealing with the overload of responsibility of doing “the work” and this competing with other responsibilities.
I’m a little afraid of driving at this point. I am just anticipating pain while driving. I know it’s related to my stressors, but not something that I can just turn off. I’m worried that I’ll get into an accident while driving.
Also, I think PT was providing a sort of crutch for me in terms of movement. And also in terms of stress. As soon as I stopped PT, my body was talking much more loudly. Almost as if it knew what was coming. It did just about everything it could this morning to stop me.
Also, I had to talk to someone in the middle of doing this work, and it really was not good timing. My mind/body was dealing with the overload of responsibility of doing “the work” and this competing with other responsibilities.
I’m a little afraid of driving at this point. I am just anticipating pain while driving. I know it’s related to my stressors, but not something that I can just turn off. I’m worried that I’ll get into an accident while driving.
Also, I think PT was providing a sort of crutch for me in terms of movement. And also in terms of stress. As soon as I stopped PT, my body was talking much more loudly. Almost as if it knew what was coming. It did just about everything it could this morning to stop me.
