I went to yoga last night and bent forward. I almost cried with happiness. Every doctor/PT I've seen always told me not to bend forward for fear of doing x, y, or z to my back. But I BENT FORWARD. My roommate probably thought I was crazy for how much I was smiling throughout the class. There was some pain, but knowing that I am not going to break and that I'm doing this to overcome my fears that I've built up over the past 4 years was so encouraging and exciting. For my next fear hurdle--horseback riding. I've been a horseback rider my whole life and stopped riding four years ago after my pain started in fear of damaging my spine more. I miss it so much. Once the weather is warm, you'll find me at the stables. Exercising how and when I want is going to bring my life back. I'm stronger than TMS.