Day 29: unsent letter

Dear M**,
The question is, "Is there anyone you feel wronged by?" And you automatically come to mind. I've been so angry, so very heartbroken. You've heard the phrase "a crippling sadness"? I've literally been unable to move forward. And that grief still colors my thoughts and my dreams when I think of our split and how it rocked our family. For a long time I blamed you. Today I forgive you. Because then I get to own the great times, of which there were many. Then I get to smile at the crazy things we did, two kids in love who muddled their way through almost 30 years. Today I choose to move forward with a strong healthy body and a new sense of myself and my new life. It's tough at times, but it's exciting - and it has moments of pure joy. So thank you. And f**k you. And farewell.