I have good days and bad days; some days I feel less pain while sitting down and then the other, the pain starts as soon as I sit down. When I am around other people, the pain does not seem to be my focus but when I am alone (at work, home) it is. My biggest struggle is having fear of the pain, I think about it all the time. I have tried putting my attention to non painful areas but my brain goes back to the pelvis. When I feel more pain (I feel as though I have pain everywhere at this point), pelvic pain and arms burning, I feel like giving up! I don't have the energy and will to keep on fighting TMS, I say I give up.. I can't do this anymore, I am tired you win! Hoping that it will have a little mercy on me and go away but it doesn't. I just can't believe that I am working the program and yet the pain continues; why aren't I so lucky like the ones who had those miraculous cures! I get angry and start to lose it because I start thinking about my future with this fucken pain (I am 36 so I have a long life ahead of me, with pain I am not interested in living a long life and wish that someone would just take me out of this misery!) Sorry but I am just being honest.. Nerve pain is very painful! When you feel that your skin is literally on fire when you sit or add pressure to it, its very depressing. I started off this program feeling so positive but I am losing hope that this program will help me. I question if I am doing something wrong here, am I not expressing my emotions when I write. I am trying to stay positive but my negative thoughts always pop in very rapidly and I feel that they overpower the positive ones. I know that I have TMS but i don't know what else I can do it beat it; i feel as though it has won. Some days I feel as though I am stuck in a deep whole and don't know how to dig myself out. I am the type of person that always finds solutions to problems and I am completely lost here.