Working thru the program, slowly, I miss a few days here and there. I have been having extreme pain (right side abdominal and lower right hip pain (internally not hip) so went back to doctor as its getting ridiculous. He sent me for an ultrasound and hip x-ray and abdominal wall ultrasound. As you can imagine nothing came back to explain the pain. Everything looks normal. So I'm overjoyed knowing that this is TMS pain and nothing structural is going on. BUT, even with the knowledge that nothing is wrong I'm still in a lot of pain. I just don't get it. I have journaled, thought I had pinpointed my trigger from childhood but nothing subsided. i know my marriage is a big stressor for me but I have journaled and talked about that and we aren't in a great place but it is manageable and probably the best it is going to be. we have been married for over 40 yrs so he isn't changing anytime soon. LOL!! Would I like it to be better, yes but he isn't the person that is going to make it better. He just isn't a person who shows emotion even with his own kids, never has been and probably never will be. I don't know how much more I can write but I've obviously missing some trigger as I'm still in a great deal of pain. Is leaving my marriage an option, it always is an option just one I don't want to make. I'm not afraid in my marriage, there is no abuse or anything like that we have just reached the roommate stage. He watches what he wants to on TV and I watch what I want in another room. It works for us but maybe subconsciously I want more and I know I do. I'm doing the trying to figure out what is stressing me when the pain shows up but I can't really pinpoint anything in my thoughts or what is happening at the moment. I have always lived a stressful life and my body doesn't know how to relax which is probably what is causing the pain as I'm retired now so have lots of time to relax. I had the occasional pain over the years while I was working and raising kids but since I retired it seems to be a constant ache and the last year seems to be getting worse the more I dive into my thoughts and feelings. Any suggestions? Just venting really.
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Adam Coloretti (coach)
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Not necessarily - what are your triggers when it comes to pain, is there anything physical still? You can work through those conditioned responses and get back to pain-free movement without necessarily hitting the jackpot on the emotional side
Maybe walking but mostly it just comes out of nowhere. I still walk even with pain but not as long as I used too.Not necessarily - what are your triggers when it comes to pain, is there anything physical still? You can work through those conditioned responses and get back to pain-free movement without necessarily hitting the jackpot on the emotional side