mina
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Hello everyone!
I haven't had time to post anything lately because something really great happened: the novel I had kept in my computer and left there when I fell very ill. Well, about that novel, oh my god!
I self-published it on amazon.fr and within two days it was in the top ten of the "humour" category and after a week it was n°4. It has been in the top 100 for the past four days (all categories mixed together) and I am so happy. I received a lot of compliments from readers who say I write wonderfully and this is so rewarding since my self-confidence was so low.
Now, the drawback of this: I have put it in the kindle 2015 contest and this is stressing me like mad! Of course, I knew it but I needed to put in this contest, what if I win? Well, if I win, it will be translated into English and sold on amazon.uk and amazon.com. This is a wonderful adventure but I am so afraid it can stop just like it began, in a wink. So I am fearful.
The other extraordinary thing is that my partner took me to a lake 45 mns away from home. I took my swim suit, thinking I wouldn't swim unless our puppy dog went in the water and couldn't swim back to the shore. But when I arrived there, I just couldn't resist (I used to be a long distance swimmer and especially enjoyed swimming in open water). The lake I am telling you about is a lake where swimming is forbidden as there is no surveillance crew and some tree trunks here and there. Exactly my type of swimming environment.
In a nutshell: the puppy didn't like the water but I couldn't resist and put my swim suit on and went in the water. I thought I would just sit in it and enjoy being in the water again but I thought: let's try a few strokes, just like Dr Sarno says, and try to ignore the pain. So I started swimming, further and further, I felt pain in my shoulder where I have had a so-called frozen shoulder for 2 years but ignored it and continued. Then I stopped and cried sooo much, I couldn't help it. Prior to this swim, I thought it would take me months to swim again and that swimming again with ease would cost me hard work but no, I swam just the way I used to.
Yesterday we went back there and this time I swam more, maybe for 30 mns on and off and felt absolutely no pain in my left shoulder.
Today, I experience very intense left leg pain (which is where the pain started and is really the worst pain one can imagine). I am trying to ignore it, I haven't taken any pain killer at all for 2 weeks and refuse to do so as it would do the job my brain is expecting but this is really hard.
So in a nutshell: the launch of the book acted as a kind of super boost on my mind which resulted on an improvement of my physical well being.
If you have any tips or thoughts to share with me, please do so. Anyone would have told me 10 days ago about what's happened in the last 10 days, I would called this person a kind naïve/crazy type of person.
I encourage anyone reading this to resume physical activity, I was reluctant to do so but this so wonderful when you realize that everything the program says is true.
One more thing that really drove me up the wall. I was talking with a friend who is a teacher like me and I was telling him that I was planning to take a well deserved sick leave and he said to me "but you should go to school even if this is a new school, a tough school with tough kids in it, it will be good for your mental health to work, if you take a sick leave you will cut yourself from the working world plus you will become a burden on the French social security system". Wow, what a blow! And this is coming from someone whom I thought was understanding of my health issues. I was flabbergasted and I told him "would you tell someone who has cancer to continue working for God's sake?" and he replied "no, but what you have has nothing to do with cancer, come on, pull yourself together". The conversation went sour and I tried to remain calm but I was mad at that guy. Who are these people who think they know better than us what is good or bad for us????
I think of you guys a lot, it gives me strenght to know that we are so many across the world to go through the same crap but after the crap comes the sun ;-)
Wishing you the best. I will try to keep you posted more.
Mina
I haven't had time to post anything lately because something really great happened: the novel I had kept in my computer and left there when I fell very ill. Well, about that novel, oh my god!
I self-published it on amazon.fr and within two days it was in the top ten of the "humour" category and after a week it was n°4. It has been in the top 100 for the past four days (all categories mixed together) and I am so happy. I received a lot of compliments from readers who say I write wonderfully and this is so rewarding since my self-confidence was so low.
Now, the drawback of this: I have put it in the kindle 2015 contest and this is stressing me like mad! Of course, I knew it but I needed to put in this contest, what if I win? Well, if I win, it will be translated into English and sold on amazon.uk and amazon.com. This is a wonderful adventure but I am so afraid it can stop just like it began, in a wink. So I am fearful.
The other extraordinary thing is that my partner took me to a lake 45 mns away from home. I took my swim suit, thinking I wouldn't swim unless our puppy dog went in the water and couldn't swim back to the shore. But when I arrived there, I just couldn't resist (I used to be a long distance swimmer and especially enjoyed swimming in open water). The lake I am telling you about is a lake where swimming is forbidden as there is no surveillance crew and some tree trunks here and there. Exactly my type of swimming environment.
In a nutshell: the puppy didn't like the water but I couldn't resist and put my swim suit on and went in the water. I thought I would just sit in it and enjoy being in the water again but I thought: let's try a few strokes, just like Dr Sarno says, and try to ignore the pain. So I started swimming, further and further, I felt pain in my shoulder where I have had a so-called frozen shoulder for 2 years but ignored it and continued. Then I stopped and cried sooo much, I couldn't help it. Prior to this swim, I thought it would take me months to swim again and that swimming again with ease would cost me hard work but no, I swam just the way I used to.
Yesterday we went back there and this time I swam more, maybe for 30 mns on and off and felt absolutely no pain in my left shoulder.
Today, I experience very intense left leg pain (which is where the pain started and is really the worst pain one can imagine). I am trying to ignore it, I haven't taken any pain killer at all for 2 weeks and refuse to do so as it would do the job my brain is expecting but this is really hard.
So in a nutshell: the launch of the book acted as a kind of super boost on my mind which resulted on an improvement of my physical well being.
If you have any tips or thoughts to share with me, please do so. Anyone would have told me 10 days ago about what's happened in the last 10 days, I would called this person a kind naïve/crazy type of person.
I encourage anyone reading this to resume physical activity, I was reluctant to do so but this so wonderful when you realize that everything the program says is true.
One more thing that really drove me up the wall. I was talking with a friend who is a teacher like me and I was telling him that I was planning to take a well deserved sick leave and he said to me "but you should go to school even if this is a new school, a tough school with tough kids in it, it will be good for your mental health to work, if you take a sick leave you will cut yourself from the working world plus you will become a burden on the French social security system". Wow, what a blow! And this is coming from someone whom I thought was understanding of my health issues. I was flabbergasted and I told him "would you tell someone who has cancer to continue working for God's sake?" and he replied "no, but what you have has nothing to do with cancer, come on, pull yourself together". The conversation went sour and I tried to remain calm but I was mad at that guy. Who are these people who think they know better than us what is good or bad for us????
I think of you guys a lot, it gives me strenght to know that we are so many across the world to go through the same crap but after the crap comes the sun ;-)
Wishing you the best. I will try to keep you posted more.
Mina
