If you could change one thing about your life what would it be? What steps could you take to make this change?
I tend to keep a good amount of clutter around me at work and at home. (I'm not a horder, but I do have a hard time throwing things away sooner than later). I think that keeping these things around me provides me with a sense of safety and protection. I need to realize that I can take care of myself and protect myself by speaking up about my needs.
I have read that sometimes by changing things in your environment (following fung shui) that you can change things inside of you. I think that when you make the changes in your environment and emotions come up then you can deal with them. Over the years I have hired personal organizers to help me get rid of my clutter. I usually have someone come once a year and spend a few hours to at least get my room to a manageable amount of clutter. I have a lot of stress and anxiety surrounding these meetings. I know I need to do it, but at the same time I feel very anxious. It's that feeling of protection that I get from being surrounded by things that wanes when I start to throw things and give things away. I hate that feeling. I am still recovering from the meeting I had with the organizer two days ago. I started to feel my plantars fascitiis which I haven't felt since starting the structured program several weeks ago. It's horrible. I know I need to explore this feeling of anxiety. I don't like having my environment a mess because it's embarrassing, but at the same time it makes me feel uneasy to have so much open space. Even when I am at a hotel I end up with things spread out everywhere including on my bed and I sleep fine that way. I feel like I will continue to follow the tenets of fung shui and see if I can uncover the reason for my uneasiness to have things neat and organized.
I tend to keep a good amount of clutter around me at work and at home. (I'm not a horder, but I do have a hard time throwing things away sooner than later). I think that keeping these things around me provides me with a sense of safety and protection. I need to realize that I can take care of myself and protect myself by speaking up about my needs.
I have read that sometimes by changing things in your environment (following fung shui) that you can change things inside of you. I think that when you make the changes in your environment and emotions come up then you can deal with them. Over the years I have hired personal organizers to help me get rid of my clutter. I usually have someone come once a year and spend a few hours to at least get my room to a manageable amount of clutter. I have a lot of stress and anxiety surrounding these meetings. I know I need to do it, but at the same time I feel very anxious. It's that feeling of protection that I get from being surrounded by things that wanes when I start to throw things and give things away. I hate that feeling. I am still recovering from the meeting I had with the organizer two days ago. I started to feel my plantars fascitiis which I haven't felt since starting the structured program several weeks ago. It's horrible. I know I need to explore this feeling of anxiety. I don't like having my environment a mess because it's embarrassing, but at the same time it makes me feel uneasy to have so much open space. Even when I am at a hotel I end up with things spread out everywhere including on my bed and I sleep fine that way. I feel like I will continue to follow the tenets of fung shui and see if I can uncover the reason for my uneasiness to have things neat and organized.
