I think that the hardest part of accepting TMS and banishing the pain is going to be acknowledging that the persona/self-view I have created is NOT working. I like to push myself and try to be perfect but it is hurting me. I think about when my pain started and realize it correlated with a new set of behaviors most of which involved me "putting on a happy face" and always being positive. People always tell me that they enjoy being around me because of my positive outlook. I'm worried that I will go back to being unlikable once I acknowledge the darker sides of my personality. I hope that this isn't too personal and that I'm not freaking anyone out. I just need an anonymous place to talk about this.