Okay. Since yesterday was Day 1, and this is only an educational program, I didn't know what to expect. I did spend 6 hours reading a book about TMS 2 days ago, so I thought, I am so miserable with so many pains, just go ahead and do the educational program. Yesterday, I tried it and was successful in sitting for much longer periods of time, and walking a short distance. However, I got into an argument with my husband about politics, and became furious. Overnight, I didn't sleep well, and began to think that in this program I was going to have to re-visit all of the things I have been afraid of, sad about, or angry about, in the past, and I went into some kind of overwhelm and shock. Today I found the Q & A section from practitioners and found this answer to someone's question about fear: Ideally any investigation of feelings will be driven by a desire to more deeply know and accept yourself, as a way of treating yourself better and having a more full experience of your life. To that end, I usually tell my clients that it is not necessarily essential for them to actively dredge up painful events and go over them time and time again looking for anger. Very often, that will result in the actual roots of the anger remaining elusive - you end up going through the markers of emotion because you feel like you're supposed to, not because of what's really going on. This is why I often tell my clients they that they don't need to seek out feelings of sadness and anger - they will come up in their day to day life and it is far more important to open oneself up to being present with their feelings as they arise rather than pressuring themselves to reinvestigate previous events ad nauseum. This is compatible with my meditation practice, and such a relief. Finding this answer brought me out of shock and realizing that I can stop, after many months, trying to dredge up old resentments, that I thought were feeding PTSD. I can stay in today, and begin to learn what I am afraid about, sad about, and angry about today. I can't say how great my relief is. I just did the exercise for day 2, and am going to go for another short walk today. I am also going to cancel my chiropractic appointment for tomorrow and a possible massage therapy appointment I had made for Wednesday. Thank you all for creating this online program. On with regular life today. Out of shock. I do see a mind body therapist who I will see on Thursday, but will stop dredging up past stuff and focus on today and this week, and getting in touch with how I am feeling now.