I'm committed to my recovery. So I'm willing to put in the work, I already have a morning routine that incorporates freewriting/journaling so I am building on that for the more specific TMS work. Activities: So many things I haven't been able or haven't had the energy and focus to do in recent years, firstly because of the back pain and subsequently because of the severity of the IBS/spastic colon pain and rectal spasms and bloating. Photography, walking - and I mean several miles, not pottering around the house and garden. Socialising and meeting up with friends - I've withdrawn so much from the world, and that is not in my nature. Shopping (I really need to buy a new bed!). This week I'm commiting to start - very gently - taking up activities again and am going to attend a lunchtime meditation group in town - just 30 minutes so it's not too daunting. Get this one out of the way and then I'll pick one of the other categories. I've been thinking about the things that make me angry: loneliness, rejection, and above all unfairness. And sad: the same three plus the regret of the time that I've lost. When I retired 7 years ago at 60 my back problems kicked in almost immediately. I had been so looking forward finally to having the time to do the things that I love - and that's not what's happened. So I need to start getting moving again.