Hi. I have a confession. I haven't been so good at the journaling this week. I don't really get the dialoguing & that is what I am supposed to do today. When I did the dialogue technique a couple of days ago I wrote maybe a half page. It felt forced & fake to me so I didn't get much out of it. & yesterday I thought about what I was to journal about but didn't write anything. I think I will write about both yesterday's & today's but not using the dialogue method. If anyone has any advice on that I will take it. I know what my problem is with current stressors though. I just make myself anxious about everything almost. I need to stay in the present moment. I get caught up in the future....but mostly with just normal tasks & things I need to get done. In addition, I start nursing school back up on the 25th & I've been working on things I need to review in preparation because everything builds on itself & they don't re-teach anything. As I am working on this I get emails from teachers of things to work on & our class Facebook group has started posting the reading assignments for week 1 on our group page because we can already see this info on our class boards. I hadn't planned for that. We already have assignments & articles to read for Day 1. They waste no time & part of it is that we have our classes once per week & most of them are 3 hours. Gone are the days where you could just show up on the 1st day & get a syllabus & that is it. With the information age you have to show up having already read & done assignments. I am 36 years old & this is my 2nd round in college. I have a business degree I received in 2001 & those were the good ole days. Now, even this Facebook group page is a necessary evil. There is so much going on that people post great reminders, helpful study guides, or you can just ask the entire class a question & get answers so I can't just leave the group (even though I would love to). At the same time I just want to take a hammer to my phone. So that is where I am at. There is so much to do in the next week or so when we are still supposed to be on summer break! I guess I am resentful because this is just ridiculous & I didn't want to think about school yet. Nursing school is so stressful as it is for the 16 weeks we are in session & now we have work to start early. Ugh. Plus, I see everyone on our FB group page freaking out & I feel their stress & it makes me stress. I know I better start the work early though because it really will help to get things started before it is too hectic. Nursing school is at lightening speed & I still have this semester & then two more. It will be interesting to see how I do once school actually starts because my TMS recovery is important & also takes priority. When you are in school though you don't have time for much else but I made sure to get plenty of sleep last semester & exercise daily so it will be okay. I will still make sure to do those things as well (& at least my exercise now is more of what I WANT to do vs working on this tight muscle & that weak muscle...pfft...I started jogging last week & am almost done with a 30 day push-up challenge!) Working on mindfulness. Breathe! Hmm...I think this maybe was my journaling for yesterday regarding "current stressors"-lol!