but currently feel soooo angry It's been a while since I've been here. Right at the moment I am feeling incredibly angry. Raging. It is pretty trivial, really, but the anger is still pulsing through me. The emotions I feel are, I want to cry, scream, rage. I am realizing that I get messed up very easily. I have plans to do X for instance, then something/someone/etc comes up and I can not deal with that. I do not relax over these kinds of things either. One of the reasons is that I am completely disorganized so when I finally get myself to be doing something, anything, I am on that path. DO NOT GET IN MY WAY. Of course things, people, situations do get in my way, it really messes me up, I am lying on the couch trying to relax right now and calm down. Positive: at least I told my husband I was angry at him but in a controlled way. Negative: the dirty nasty emotions I am feeling, not literally of course but they are strong, they are real. Positive: telling him I am angry at him is probably a really good thing for me. I think I am afraid of telling him things for fear I might lose him, even if that is unfounded but it still affects me greatly. I ... I just had an online convo with my husband about all of this. In a way, this whole thing is great. I see that I am wound tightly because if I wasn't, I feel I'd fall apart. I am not angry anymore. Positive, and on a different note I am working harder on my TMS. I am dancing daily, counting cals on http://www.myfitnesspal.com I took "before" horrendous pix of self. I have lost 2 lbs in 2 days. I feel I'm on the right path. I love dancing to Just Dance 2014 & Zumba World Party on the Xbox One.