Day 11 I found myself smack up against a traumatic event that I have never dealt with emotionally and that I couldn't feel. So I began to look at isolated snapshots surrounding the event. I can't get at it directly yet, but am thinking this is a way to ease into it. I'm also halfway through Steve O's book, which is beyond helpful. Also a little alarming because I'm so keyed up and suggestible right now that I hate hearing about new symptoms! I love his term "tensionalgia." I'm noticing a great increase in conscious anxiety, whereas normally I don't think of myself as being anxious. My RSI pain is swinging wildly—disappearing then getting more extreme. Last night I learned that by using a meditation technique, I can get it to back off. That was huge. It took a couple of hours, but dammitall, I did it.