Hi all, Today was an interesting day. I woke up in the midst of a rage dream, and was surprised at the contents of it, so I added it to my list. I went exercising today and the knee pain that I would get when my foot thumped the ground didn't come, and when it 'tried to' it didn't stay long. Even so, the pain sometimes depresses me. I mentioned earlier how my big toe was injured due to something the doctors said would never recover, and I believed in healing for it, got it and feel much better. Even so, I sometimes have flare ups in the toe and start worrying- what if the doctors were right? What if there is something wrong with it? What if it never healed? And the face of some respected surgeon telling me that he has 'never seen someone with my toe recover' comes flashing through my face. I know that people say, 'check with a doctor to see if there is something actually serious going on' but after reading certain stories, I can see that many TMS survivors have checked with doctors who have told them serious things are going on. So in general, I'm not sure trusting a doctor makes sense. Anyway, today I'm feeling a little depressed about the pain in my toe (arch pain gone), knee and other heel. I keep trying to tell myself to think psychologically but I think the little voice that is doubting my healing has been stressing me out, especially in regards to the toe. The knee is just frustrating in a 'when will this end'?!? kind of way. Any words of encouragement, please send them my way.