Day 11: battle in my Brain

Hi everybody I develop neck and shoulder pain 3 years ago ( starded new work, lived in a new city, i was frustrated by my "mother's life ")/ i'm a goodist and need to be loved by everyone . There's no TMS therapist in France but i learned about dc sarno's book by chance.
My problem is that sometimes i think my pain increase because of postural problem ( i work all the day with a computer / pain increases also when I carry my baby in my arms ). I spend lot of time to monitor my pain. it's a battle in my Brain! Need some help!
Thanks and sorry for my english