Today's thought to ponder is whether or not I am apprehensive about exercising. The answer is yes absolutely. I have traced the TMS back pain to four years ago when I hurt myself at the gym. I just remember feeling a slight discomfort at the time. Nothing like I had to rush home and put ice on it. But the next day or so at work my sciatic nerve fired off in my left leg and it gave out on me. Within a few months it had gotten so bad I was using a shower chair and grabbers to pick up things from the floor. I continued working out in spite of it for four years but I developed a fear of getting hurt on the spin bike at my gym because from time to time the pedals will break off. I also have partial knee replacement and if I hurt my knee with a broken pedal I could end up with a total replacement. I left that gym and joined another hoping their maintenance on the bikes was better. It wasn't and the gym membership was way too expensive so I went back to the old gym. I have been back there for a year or more and I am still afraid of getting hurt. I often feel worse after working out and I know I push myself too much. My back will feel worse after a yoga class when we do too many forward folds. And my neck kills me during spin class. I also stay away from certain machines because it hurts my back. Now I am starting to just work out at home with an on demand subscription for very little $. I have my own spin bike, yoga mat, hand weights etc. I can do things at my own pace and not feel guilty if I need to stop a spin class after 30 mins. At the gym it's uncomfortable to leave a yoga class or spin class early so even if I don't feel well I will stay until the end. I did go to the gym for yoga on Sunday and I had a headache the whole time. Had I been at home doing my yoga I would have stopped and taken some Tylenol. Part of me does not want to give in and cancel my gym membership but the other part of me says that it is better for me to work at my own pace and not feel pressured by all the gym rats. I had become one of them and was going to the gym 5 days a week but still in pain.