I still can't convince myself totally that my pain is TMS. I do have the move around pain, intensity when stressed, clear imaging etc so my logical brain knows its more likely TMS but my emotional brain or subconscious doesn't want to fully accept it yet hence why I still have pain. I seem to get pain when I feel I'm having a good few days and no stressors happening and that is what bothers me. The pain does subside eventually so another indicator that it is TMS but the part that I'm not stressed or I think I'm not yet I still suffer pain. That is the confusing part for me and I still fear the pain when it arises as it isn't structural pain but internal pain like kidney, abdominal , pelvic pain. Mostly always on my right side so I always go to appendicitis or gallbladder.
I've stopped googling symptoms and stopped my Facebook groups that deal with TMS pain and even gave this up for a few days but feel I need to see this thru as I'm only on day 10. I seem to always rehash the same issues, my childhood, my mother and my marital relationship with my journaling. My pain seemed to intensify once I retired which was 3 years ago but my marital issues happened way before that and so did my childhood. Maybe when I was working and raising kids I was too busy to think about my problems and now that I'm retired I have a lot more free time to dwell on my life and the choices I've made.
I've stopped googling symptoms and stopped my Facebook groups that deal with TMS pain and even gave this up for a few days but feel I need to see this thru as I'm only on day 10. I seem to always rehash the same issues, my childhood, my mother and my marital relationship with my journaling. My pain seemed to intensify once I retired which was 3 years ago but my marital issues happened way before that and so did my childhood. Maybe when I was working and raising kids I was too busy to think about my problems and now that I'm retired I have a lot more free time to dwell on my life and the choices I've made.
