I am keeping my emotions mostly from my parents. I feel that I should have told them some things years and years ago, but I haven't. Because I was never a fan of confrontation, maybe I was not brave enough or I was sensitive for their feelings. Also I did not see things this clearly when I was younger. Now they are much older, more fragile and now I do not see any good in telling what I think about their characters or sharing my anger about their egoism. They cannot change and I am very uncomfortable thinking of the possible answers, I do not believe that they would understand what I actually mean, instead they might misunderstand and make me feel even more angry or desperate. I think I am better off trying to deal with my feelings on my own. I have not thought about these things before, I did not think I could write, but I could and it felt good.