Regarding the question of who do I hide my emotions from? I hide my emotions from everyone. My kids, my grandchildren, my extended family, my friends, the people I work with. I even hide my emotions from myself. Of course, sometimes they do surface. When they do, it's usually to my 44 year old daughter or my 42 year old son. I hold the emotions in, but sometimes just have to let go. Usuallly they come out as sadness due to pain. I never or very rarely express anger as I don't really know if I'm having any anger. My easiest emotion is sadness and I always try to hide that too. Pathetic, yes? I'm going to try to keep this in mind and not repress my emotions when I feel them. Good lesson number 10.