Yesterday I went for a walk (maybe 15 0r 20 minutes) prior to going to my parents home for the Christmas Holiday. I was really dreading it. The walk HURT! All the way through and it hurt worse than any walk I've done since I have diagnosed myself with TMS. My left hip and leg and even the left side of my low back were throbbing by the time I got back to my house. I tried very hard to not focus on the pain but it was pretty intense. The pain sort of settled down once I stopped walking but I felt the remnants of it the rest of the day and even today. It made me very discouraged. It seems when my gets worse after exercises or doesn't improve I get very anxious and scared and angry. Gee...sure sounds like TMS traits huh? I am thinking that the anticipation of being around my mother and father increased my anxiety and fear and the pain just came on as a way to add to it. Or maybe it was as distraction? Don't think about the emotional stuff because here is the intense throbbing pain. It makes me feel hopeless. I read several forum posts last night in an effort to reassure myself that I do have TMS. It seems like its never enough for me. Then I remind myself that my chiropractor discharged me from her care as she said I was doing great and that the ortho doctor suggested/cleared me for PT but he even said "you shouldn't really have this pain because the MRI states the bulge isn't in contact with a nerve". Why am I feeling to scared? Why can't I just believe in this? I know its the truth. This is sort of how I am in general. I don't have a lot of faith in good things. Dang! I have my work cut out for me huh? Thanks for reading or listening.