I still repress my emotions in front of my mother. As a child, she would yell at me when I cried or fought with my sisters or brother. Sometimes she would even physically abuse me. I mostly remember her slapping, grabbing/jerking, or spanking me. I think the worst damage was her somehow "making" me feel guilty and like I was bad. I just got used to keeping myself even emotionally when I'm around her...and most others...and to this day I struggle to express sadness and anger, even in front of my therapist and TMS doctor.